I have officially had my first meltdown and school hasn't even officially commenced. My schedule this semester is a bit wacky having two night classes, which really doesn't bother me... except one of them conflicts with the Tuesday night volleyball games... I'm pinched with a really tough predicament: drop the hours or drop the job- neither of which are particularly great options. I was so frazzled and overwhelmed and felt like there was no escape. I called my mom but she was in a Bible study so I had to wait to try to discuss things with her. Also in the meantime, I found out sad news about the loss of a close family friend. I am finally starting to feel the real twinges of homesickness. It was a weird feeling not being able to just know I would see mom this evening and talk to her at that time and also not being able to be with my close friend right now during their time of loss. The tears are rolling as I write this. I know this will pass and I'll feel better later, but right now the moments seem to drag a bit. Writing has really seemed to keep me level with processing everything and I'm grateful for that. In fact, I'm already feeling better.
I'm hoping to have the job/class predicament resolved by tomorrow afternoon. Now, I'm going to get my things prepared for class tomorrow. Afterwards, I think I'm going to curl up with some hot tea in my bed and watch a movie.
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